JUST REALIZED #6 -WE ARE BOTH CLOWNS

It's the 6th month of the year and I’m still not on my Zoom, are you? 

The Google definition of a clown: is a comic entertainer, especially one in a circus, wearing a traditional costume and exaggerated make-up. Let's break it down together, a comic entertainer = you and I, especially one in a circus = our lives.

I joined the university in January 2024, it's June 2024 (birth month by the way) and I've wasted time and time is money, maybe that's why I'm broke. I've been wasting time and haven't accomplished anything noteworthy. I've been feeling so depressed and useless because of the feeling of immobility. The days pass by in a blur of lost chances and unrealized possibilities. I battle with self-doubt and feelings of inadequacy, wondering why I can't seem to break out from this pattern. I am so engulfed in my negative emotions that finding a way out of regret and sorrow is difficult. 

Even if I occasionally feel like I've wasted time, looking back at my accomplishments helps me see the bright side. I've been able to enroll at university for the last six months, which is a big milestone for my education. I also had the amazing opportunity to play for Team Kenya, a privilege that required me to step outside my comfort zone. I've also met some amazing new people who have expanded my social circle and improved my quality of life. These successes serve as a reminder that all growth, no matter how tiny, is worthwhile.

I know that the year is not over, even though it's easy for me to focus on the last six months and feel the burden of unmet expectations. It's still possible to make significant progress and turn things around. I can change my perspective by adopting a positive viewpoint. Rather than criticizing myself, I concentrate on making baby steps ahead. Every day is a brand-new chance to begin. I constantly remind myself that progress, not perfection, is what matters. I may start moving toward a better future by treating myself with kindness and celebrating even the little victories, and I would recommend you to do the same. 

Maybe I'm just the clown who can’t take accountability and I need to be clowns with other people. If you are on your Zoom please befriend me so that I can get that type of influence.